I Need A Hair Cut

I think this whole moving-to-L.A. thing is making me feel better. I’m not all bummed out. I can’t wait to get my own place. Hopefully, one of the two places I want will be available soon. That’d be awesome. I realized recently, though, that I won’t have any furniture aside from my bedroom stuff and a lounge chair. I guess it’s time to look in the PennySaver. Do you guys have that out there?

I’m going to be so uncomfortable! Eating nothing but Top Ramen, sitting on the floor (until I get a couch), having no TV, walking around in my underwear……wait, that's a good thing. Which reminds me, Ellie, I’m going to give you a key, but knock before coming in.

So yeah, if you guys come to California, my door is wide open (except for the times when it’s not). Stop by and we’ll sit on the floor and stare at the wall TOGETHER!

I’ve never lived alone. I actually don’t want to live alone unless I get one of the two places I mentioned earlier. Otherwise, I would need a roommate because I’ll be a-scared. I hope I can afford it all. I wish I had a money tree. I still haven’t paid off those damn hospital bills… well, I paid two off, but I still have one. I had planned to have it paid off by November, but I doubt that will happen…….

The trip out east is looking more and more likely. If I can get the time off work, I’ll definitely go for the weekend. We’ll have so much fun! Mark your calendars, folks! Mid-December. :)

Guess that’s all for now. Bye!

Ouch

Ellie burned me:

And then we laughed.

So it looks like I won't be dressing up this Halloween. Since I'm moving next week, I really should save all my money. Besides, there's only a week left to work on my costume. That, and we haven't found a costume party to go to, so there's really no point. I am starting work on Halloween, though. Ellie pointed out that if I don't do something, I'll stand out as the new person. So maybe she can make me a burn victim or put a hammer through my head or something. That'll be fun.

Still looking for a place to live. Jaime, move out here as soon as you can. I need someone to help with the rent. Even if you can't find a job, I'll show you how to make tamales and you can go to Echo Park and sell them or something. So that's that.

Oh, and check this out, I had given my two weeks notice (this is my last week here) and last Friday, they told us that they were shutting down the escrow department. So now my coworker and boss don't have jobs. I feel bad for them, but a bit relieved that I have a job in LA. Maybe it was meant-to-be.

Hercules died last week. Poor little guy. He was attacked by dogs out in the backyard. R.I.P., Hercules. We love you!

Random Ramblings

I'm at work. There is no work. I'm alone the entire morning. This will be my distraction from... well..... never mind.



I miss the beach. I want to go back. It's starting to get cool, and it's even cooler at the beach. I love it, though. I feel totally comfortable there. I feel free. Stupid desert.



I'm going to save up money and head out east. You all live in the east. I'm the only one out here in California (West coast represent!! lol). Well, aside from Ellie. :P So yes, I hope to go by the end of the year.... or maybe not. I'm cold now, I can't imagine how cold I would be in your weather. I really can't.



I took my little cousins to see Jackass Number 2. It was..... not pretty. At all. I don't usually like to watch comedies that have no... wit, or thought behind them. It was nice, though, to just sit and react for a couple of hours instead of just sit and think. I think too much.

My cousin told me I was getting fatter. >=( I didn't eat menudo or posole or tamales at my cousin's birthday party. I did have cake, though.



I was going to buy photoshop, but I didn't see the point since I don't have a camera.



I'm really upset at a few people; people whom I thought were my friends.... Kelly, "who" or "whom?" I never know when to use which. Anyway, it sucks that they just basically desert me. And they do it at a time when I need them the most. When I told my "best friend" about my S.I.'s, she was surprised.... yeah, I haven't seen her since that day. Empty promises of coming up to visit me was all I got.

Shit got hard earlier this year when my dad got sick, so my cousin kicks me out of her house because she thinks I'm having sex with her husband (btw, my cousin is a lesbian, and has a girlfriend). So I move back home with my parents.

Things are better once my dad is home (by the way, he's great now. Just having problems with his hands, but his lungs are in good condition. Thank you all for your support!!) So yeah, my family and I are a bit more relieved; feeling good. Then more shit happens, and I'm confused, and I can't sort things out, and I'm drinking way too much and using my D.L. for something it shouldn't be used for, at a friend's house.... that's the last time I see this supposed "good" friend.

I feel like shit at this point.... then it happens again, but by now I don't care. Then things start to pick up for me. I'm actually feeling better about me. Unfortunately, shit started to resurface about a month ago. When will it end?

It's shit like this that makes me trust my friends even less. Although they may say that they'll be there no matter what.... I mean, that's what the other people said, too. That didn't stop them. If a friend is in need, why would you just go and leave them like that? At a time when they MOST need you? That's fucked up.......... not cool. I'm learning my lesson, though (I guess).

Maybe it's me.

Probably, it's me.

Too coincidental not to be.



If it weren't for the fact that I love my family, I swear I would move to Nebraska... hell, Australia!



I hate myspace. It's the devil. I'm on it practically every day, checking to see if I got any new messages, any new comments, any interesting bulletins (which are mostly my cousins talking back and forth to their friends and annoy the hell out of me because they're flooding my bulletin space... I guess mine aren't any better, though). When I'm bored, I'll change my profile. It's a waste of time, really. What did I do before myspace, before the internet? I should paint, or draw. I haven't drawn a portrait in years. I don't even think I can do it again, but I should try. If I move to L.A. (that's seeming more unlikely now) I hope we have no internet. Then maybe I can take those couple of hours that I spend online and do something worth while.

I do like deviantART, though. I post on it. That's somewhat creative, right?



I was watching Xmen (the cartoon series) the other day with Sam and Joe on YouTube. They totally destroyed Rogue's character in the movie. I was so disappointed. I LOVED Xmen when I was a kid, and Rogue was my absolute favorite character. I loved Gambit, too, but Rogue... I wanted to be Rogue. She was sexy, and had a cool accent, and had cool hair (lol) and she didn't take shit from anyone. Who is this Rogue that they decided to put in the movie? Why did they totally dismiss the history that she and Mystique had together? And why Bobby and not Gambit? That sucks. What happened to Jubilee? And that dude that has the same powers as Mystique? I forgot his name, but he talks like a rat. Yeah, what's up with that?

I like Jean's character in the movie. I especially love her alter ego.

Cyclops is a wimp.



I was going to buy a Sublime hoodie last weekend. It was too thin, so I just got a Sublime tshirt that is too big for me.



What would you do if the chair you're currently sitting on turned into a horse and started galloping away?



Sorry for this blog. I've been kind of a downer lately.




I'll probably blog again by the end of the afternoon...


Later.

For Good...

I crawl out of sight for you, dear
I melt with the night, I disappear
I won't have more fun with you
Never get drunk with you
I'll let you go for good

I've pulled it apart for you dear
I wait for my heart to shift gear
I'll never sleep late with you
Never get baked with you
I'll let you down for good

I'll never go back to you
Never shoot smack with you

I'll let you go for good
I'll let you go for good
I'll let you go
--Veruca Salt "Break-Up Song"



Breaking up with a boy/girlfriend, best friend, or even family; Very different, but so the same.

The Bearded Lady Is Gone

I liked Meg, the Rock & Roll chick. She was awesome. Stupid Tyra.

I'm trying to decide on whether or not I should go to a concert today. It's in Anaheim (which is like an hour and a half from here, maybe less). Don't know when it starts; probably 8. I could go, but I'd have to come back at around 11. I work tomorrow, so I don't want to be bitchy because I didn't get enough sleep. I'm thinking... Maybe I can invite someone to go along, in which case it might be cool. :)

Happy Columbus Day.

Ciao.

I'm A Fucking Shrub, Alright?

I'm terrible at making decisions. I've tried to get better, but I'm just indecisive. It sucks. Just do it, dammit. Que sera, sera. You deal with the consequences.

Things need to change. Hopefully moving will help.

I don’t know what I want anymore.

Except that I would want to live in a huge house with all of you guys, and have a giant pool in the shape of…. Uh……. Something totally badass, and have a giant hot tub, and basketball court and a field, and a garden with a garden maze, and 13 balconies, and tons of rooms that are laid out randomly around the house so that it’s easy to get lost, and a bathroom outside (indoors, outside), and a huge fireplace like the one on Beetlejuice, and a theatre and a bowling alley…… no, scratch that. It’s best to do those things in the city. But yeah. That’s what I want.

I also want to go camping. Next year, in August, we are all going camping. Save up now. It’ll be fucking shveet. We’ll go for four days and have one hell of a time. It’ll be fun, no?

This is Halloween

I LOVE this holiday. I just love it. The one time of the year where you can dress up as a goblin, or walk down the street with half a face, and people won't look at you like you're a freak.

I can't decide on a costume, though. Any ideas? I'm trying to be original (meaning, no store-bought costumes). It's a tie between Mia Wallace and Poison Ivy. Anyone else have any good Halloween ideas?

So what are you plans?